The Future is Terrifying! (and I’m Beyond Excited)

07.30.2019

The future has been on my mind a lot recently. Why shouldn’t it be? I’m about to finish high school, I’m on the verge of adulthood, and this is when everyone starts asking where I’m going to school, what I want to do, and when I plan to accomplish all my goals. It can be intimidating, but I’m always up for a challenge. Luckily for me I’m also an obsessive planner and was asking myself these questions as soon as I hit high school.

Throughout my life and especially during my time in high school, I had fought with myself a lot over what I wanted to do. At my core, I always knew that missions was where I was meant to be, but when I first got to high school I didn’t want anything to do with the Christian faith I grew up around. As I got older and reestablished my relationship with Jesus, the tug to go to the mission field was stronger, but that also made it scarier. Moving to a new country with new people and a new culture and all kinds of new things that I was completely unfamiliar with was not a great idea in my mind. How was I supposed to be an effective minister of Christ outside my very confined comfort zone?

Finally, I decided I would be a teacher instead. I had made up my mind (of course every other part of me was yelling at me to trust that lifelong tug). I walked into the first meeting with my dual-enrollment counselor and sat down ready to tell her all about how much I wanted to be a teacher. She asked me, “What kind of work would you like to do?” Without missing a beat I told her I wanted to work overseas doing missions work. To say I was shocked would be an understatement. I went quiet, my mom went quiet, my counselor started looking for the best program for me, and this completely new kind of peace washed over me. For the first time since I was a child there wasn’t a bit of stress in my mind over how I would make it happen, how I would be effective, or what struggles I’d have to get myself through. I knew without a doubt that I was entirely incapable of working out any of those things, but God would have the perfect way. As terrifying as it still was, I couldn’t help but be excited for what His plans were.

After that day, I became fully committed to going overseas. I am still working through plans on what that looks like. I’m figuring out schooling and training, I’m continuing to grow in my relationship with Christ, and there are still many things I’m uncertain about when it comes to my future and my life in the mission field. This blog is a look into those plans, decisions that have to be made for my future, and what it looks like to live them out. It can feel a bit unnerving, but I know that God’s way and His plans for me are good. I have complete faith that this calling will lead me to a place of knowing, growing, and sharing a deeper love.

Hello Beautiful People, thank you for reading! This first post is just a very short introduction to what this whole blog is about. My desire is to bring each of you along with me on my journey of accepting my calling and growing in my relationship with God in hopes to inspire and encourage my friends, family, and my brothers and sisters in Christ. Updates on my life, plans, etc. as well as some posts about what I’m learning about God through reading, prayer, and personal experiences will be up at least twice a month! I would love if you would subscribe to this blog and head over to my Instagram @gabrielle____r and give it a follow! Thank you again, and have a blessed day!


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